Tonight, as I sit in my Bethlehem, PA hotel room watching Fixer Upper, I am feeling all the feels one encounters on the eve of a milestone.
Tomorrow, I will toe the line at my 25th half marathon and 125th race. The Runners World Half Marathon feels like the PERFECT place to celebrate.
As I have shared MANY times, running saved my life. Since lacing up my running shoes after M was born, in the fall of 2012, I have crossed 106 finish lines. I have logged thousands of miles. And along the way found more than I can share here in a way that gives depth and meaning to that statement. I sit here tonight because of those finish lines, those miles, and EVERY person who ran them with me. Never an athlete, running became a saving grace for a life riddled with anxiety and doubt.
Today, I am a better mom and a better wife and a better friend and a better human. All those miles significantly shifted my fate and my future. And the best part – in the most secret part of my heart – is that I did that through the power of my own perseverance and hard work. I made choices every time I set a 4am alarm clock or showed up when I wasn’t ready or signed up for a race because a friend asked. That might be the most empowering part of those miles.
And now, it is time for new adventures. I will keep running and growing and being inspired. But I’m ready for MORE. Next to me on the bed is a binder just waiting for the ideas in my head to land on paper. Over the next weeks and months, I will be doing the hard work to make those dreams come true. Just like running, I know it will take small moments that eventually become something bigger. And I am so excited.
I may pop back from time to time, but the role of running in my life has shifted. It’s a beautiful shift – based in soul searching and hard questions and big answers. Without all those miles, I would never had found the courage to ask those questions. It still astounds me what the power of the human spirit can do. So just for today, I am signing off my blog so I can sign on to something brand, spanking new.
Thank you for your running fellowship. I look forward to seeing you at a race and giving you a huge, sparkly hug.