This week the word is SPONTANEOUS.
I have been thinking about the Wednesday Word for TWO DAYS. And nothing. I am not a spontanous person – I am much more like a drip coffee pot. I think and think and think and finally act. I am an excellent executioner, but you can pretty well bet I have been pondering my idea for quite a while – even if I haven’t told anyone or uttered my ideas out loud. A friend once told me that I could tell her I was going to be an astronaut and she knew I’d find a way to do it. The ultimate compliment in my opinion.
As I pondered the word, I thought – perhaps I should try to be more spontaneous. It seems like everyone who is has fun and couldn’t we all do with more fun in our lives??? Maybe I’d do better if I just followed Elsa’s words and “LET IT GO…”!
And the more I thought about it the more I realized, it’s OK that I’m just me. It’s fine to not be spontaneous, to be a planner. I have a full time job, a kiddo, volunteer opportunities, training schedules and relationships to juggle. I need order and structure. It helps me to balance my anxiety disorder and still be a functional, happy human being. And the world needs people like me. I get s$@t done!
But whenever something rolls around my head for a while, I know I need to make space for the idea. If I 100% didn’t care about letting spontaneity into my world, I would have dismissed the word and moved on. The place I can be relatvely spontaneous – out on the running trail. I can say what pops into my head, run at the pace I am feeling and truly be present. My friends help me to LET GO of whatever is churning around inside so when I return to the “real” world.
And perhaps that is the lesson. I don’t need to build a complete ice palace on a mountain and throw my tiara away, but I can be present and silly and have fun in other aspects of my life – particularly with my family. Will let you know how I do, but my 4 year old (4 3/4 he will tell you) is a great teacher. I am sure we will be just fine.